be fearless. i’ve started planning out my new years’ resolutions, but instead of acting on them when the new year comes, i am already starting them. here are some that i have planned out:
- live simpler - i realize that i spent so much money this year on material things. and i’m not saying that treating yourself is a bad thing, but i want to rid myself of “happiness” granted through aesthetic things.
- act more - i’ve let golden opportunities slip me by this year because i was scared of failing. but i would much rather die standing than live on my knees. it’s okay to fail. it’s okay to make mistakes. i’m doing my best to continue to learn this. struggle. that’s how you grow.
- think less - i tend to overthink things too much. instead of thinking about the “what if’s,” i will focus more on the “what will be’s.”
- kill them with kindness - at work, i’ve let people that treat me badly ruin my day. instead of granting them the satisfaction that they’ve gotten to me, i’m being so extremely nice that there’s no real reason to be rude other than they are simply an angry person.
- reconnect with my family - i realize that my job and my personal life have pulled me away from my family. i simply wake up, go to work, come home, and go to sleep. and on my days off, i spend it away from my parents. my parents have provided so much for me and i want to show them how truly grateful i am.
- work on me - i realize that there are still some underlying issues that i need to deal with. and that doesn’t necessarily mean that i’m unhappy, but it might be the root cause of why i seek aesthetic happiness. i need to work on myself before i can commit to anyone else.
- find religion again - i used to go to temple every single sunday, but ever since college, i haven’t really gone. i want to try to go once or twice a month, if not every single sunday. that shouldn’t be hard to go to a 10AM service before i work at 12PM.
- appreciate the little things - i also realize that i’ve been so focused on the “big picture” that i fail to appreciate the little things. family, friends, a roof over my head, a car to drive, food on the table, and all the other little things we seem to take for granted but not all of us are privileged to have.
- find my forte - i still don’t know what i want to do in life. what is my calling card. i’m working on balancing passion and work together. once i can find a job that i am truly passionate about, then i can truly say i found my niche.
- focus on the now - i sometimes let things in my past affect my present. instead of holding onto things that are no longer relevant, i need to rid myself of them. i am simply only hurting myself. i need to learn to let go completely. i can move on.
there’s much more that i want to work. and it all doesn’t have to happen this coming new year, but i’d like it to. with a little hard work and determination, i can do anything. you can do anything. strive to do better. everyone deserves the world. but nobody is going to give it you. it’s up to you to go and get it.
